Sunday, January 31, 2010

I'm used to you...

The other night as I was tucking my littlest boy into bed, he rubbed his hand across my face, gazed into my eyes and said; “Mommy, I like your face. I like your hair too! That’s ‘cause I’m really used to it.” I thought to myself…hmm, thank you? I think. He never ceases to provide me with moments of laughter, even at the end of a long hard day. Upon first hearing this, you may, like me, be perplexed by the statement. He went on to explain that when he sees a stranger, he doesn’t know them, so he doesn’t like the way they look but he knows me so he likes seeing my face. Interpretation please? He means he is comforted by my presence. He means that when he sees me, gray hairs and all, his heart leaps inside him and he longs to be with me. He means that in my arms he is comforted and finds peace.

Think back to when you were a little child and maybe you were home with a babysitter, or at someone’s house for a sleepover. Maybe you went away to an overnight camp. While you were away, or alone or longing for familiarity, you envisioned what it would be like when all was normal again. I was blessed to find that comfort in my daddy’s arms for a time. I could have had a terrible day, fought with my mom or my best friend, got a terrible grade on a test or was made fun of on the bus. Then, when daddy came home, it seemed as if his very presence would put a warm and peaceful feeling back into my soul. I knew him and was comforted by him. His large six and a half foot tall frame would scoop me up and hide me from the world. It was peaceful there. I was used to him.

Some of us do not have that particular memory of a comforting mom or dad, someone who caressed our face and gently wiped our tears. Some of us don’t know what it is like to have someone to send us off to our day with a hug and smile, saying, “it will be O.K.- I’ll be here when you get home.” Some of us come home to an empty dark and lonely house and cry ourselves to sleep at night. Some of us live in a cold dark empty place even still, where the four walls of our loneliness are strangely comforting themselves.

In scripture, Jesus assures us that He knows our name. He knows us so well that the very hairs on our heads are numbered. God reached down from the highest, most holy place and took you out of the darkness and formed you with his very own hands. He created you. He longs for you. He is madly and deeply in love with you. YOU make his face smile and His heart leap for joy. He longs to be your comforter. He wants you to be comforted by Him, hidden in the arms of a Savior.

My sweet baby boy finds comfort in my arms. His face lights up when he sees me smile. He runs to me for comfort. He runs to me for peace. When he gets home from school, he can’t wait to tell me how much he wrote on his number scroll or how well he did on his spelling test. Likewise, the Savior, Abba Father, longs for you to run to Him. He longs to wipe away every tear from your eyes, cradle your broken heart and breathe peace into your soul. He longs for you to know Him. Isaiah 66:13 says; “As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem." Let the Savior comfort you today.

I love this song by Keith Green, “Lord you’re beautiful.” The chorus is my favorite: “Oh Lord, You are beautiful and Your face is all I see, and when Your eyes are on this child, Your grace abounds to me.”

Help us to seek your face Abba Father, Help us to let you be our comforter. Amen.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

When love is obvious

“If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” Matthew 7:11

I have enjoyed this season of giving (Christmas) so much this year. I shopped very early the day after Thanksgiving as is my yearly ritual and got some great bargains for the absolute perfect gifts. I barely could even wait for Christmas to see my three children open them!! For my husband, I made a trek to Home Depot on Christmas Eve with hardly a clue as to what he had rattled off on his wish list. It had something to do with a power tool that is very small, has a long lasting battery and has the words “impact driver” in it. I also had a ball-park price to work with. I decided last minute to go in search of this item and prayed all the way there that there would be some left. I also prayed that one would have my husbands name written on it or that it would supernaturally speak my name as I walked by it on the shelf!! Luckily, the Lord sent a very nice salesperson, who kept his laughter to himself and walked me right over to the exact thing I was pitifully describing. I was so excited to wrap it up and give it to him Christmas day!!

There was another gift, for my son, that I am absolutely sure the Lord set out just for us. I had been looking for it since I saw it two weeks before Thanksgiving. At that time I didn’t have the extra money to buy it. Once I was ready to buy it, it was gone! The only place I could get it was online and at a much higher price. Then, one week before Christmas at the same store and exactly at the moment I was telling my husband the story of what a terrific gift this thing would have made and how I shouldn’t have waited. I looked down in the aisle next to my feet and there on a cart with a bunch of miscellaneous items, was one!! It was as if the Lord set it there just for me! Both of us were giddy with excitement.

I know that truly Christmas is really about the gift of God’s son and our blessed assurance of eternal life when we believe but because He loves us so, I also realize his gifts in every day life. The extra little things He places along our way just to send us a hug, a smile, a laugh…a heavenly kiss…and a whisper in the wind to say… “I love you.” God knows the very desires of our heart and even before we can utter a plea, He sets things into motion just to see us smile.

Today, the Lord displayed His love in a very tangible way by showing me how much He loves my sweet baby girl. She and I went shopping for some desperately needed items of clothing (must children grow??!!). She had something very specific in mind, and so far we had not found it anywhere, even though we have looked for a few months now. As I stood outside the fitting room waiting for her to come out, I turned around to find FOUR of the items she was looking for, sitting on a clearance shelf-- in her size!! They were on sale at half-price and there were only about 8 left. They were EXACTLY what she had been looking for. Just to be sure His love was obvious to us today, I glanced down on the way to the register and saw out of the corner of my eye a t shirt (also half-price) in her favorite color with a panda (her favorite animal) on the front. It was the only one and it too was in her size. The glee with which she picked it up, giggled and twirled in the aisle made it worth paying full price even! Isn’t that just so neat?!!

Sometimes God’s love is so obvious. It is not affected by the weather, the stock on a shelf, the economy or even my own mood or actions. There is no expiration date and His love never runs out. It comes in every size and every color and needs no money to buy. His love fits all, in every season whether we feel it or not, it’s there. There is nothing that can separate us from it and no pre-requisites for receiving it. His love is magnificent and eternal. Jeremiah 31: 3-4 comes to my mind; “The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. I will build you up again and you will be rebuilt, O Virgin Israel. Again you will take up your tambourines and go out to dance with the joyful.”…in the aisles with a panda t-shirt…because I love you.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Out of the mouths of…

Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing.
~ Proverbs 12:18, NLT

I admit I am a wise guy (or gal). I love to whip out a quick witted remark whenever I am inspired to do so (not always a good idea). Some of my favorites are… “What part of NO don’t you understand?” and, “maybe I should say it in French, NO! How about Spanish, NO!” The worst part is when you teach your children so well that they come right back at yah with one!

One day recently I snapped the “what part of NO do you not understand?” remark and my son swiftly replied, “uh, the “N” and the “O.” I admired his wit and know exactly where he got it. Sometimes it can make a mom cringe. Thankfully they copy positive words too. They are like tape recorders (does anyone have tape recorders anymore- maybe we should update that to “DVR” or “TIVO”).

When my daughter was potty training, a long time ago, I went to use a public bathroom. When I was all done she jumped up and down in the stall, clapping and yelling, “good girl Mommy, you went pee pees!” Needless to say I waited (hid) in there just a little longer until I knew the bathroom was vacant.

It’s tough to monitor my words. I have witnessed how very powerful they can be as evidenced by my children’s response. My words can light up their face, put a spring in their step and a twinkle in their eye. They can also, in a heartbeat, shatter their Spirit and crumble them to tears.

Scripture speaks frequently about the power of our tongue, meaning speech. Taming the tongue is one of the most difficult things to do according to the Bible. Luke 6:45 says; “The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.” Sometimes it surprises me what wells up from down there when I am overtired, too busy, angry or frustrated. It is almost like I could stand back from myself and watch the show- kind of like looking at a bad accident in a stock car race. You want to look away but you can't.

It is not coincidental that I would be reminded of watching what I say by scriptures I received in some devotions I subscribe to. God often repeats himself when he is trying to make a point. I need to concentrate on making my words edifying to others. To build up instead of tear down. There is a beautiful saying that is sobering and true. “I may be the only Jesus some will ever see” (or hear). What do our words tell about Jesus?

Dear Jesus, please forgive my sour words. Cleanse my heart from negativity. Help me to lift up those around me and be a good witness of your love. Help my words be sweet. Amen

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

The main thing…brought to you by a text message!

“The Lord your God will be with you wherever you go…”Joshua 1:9

Some of you know that I am a registered nurse. I once had a patient who served the Lord and gave me a bit of advice I will never forget. As he was recovering from a very painful surgery and a chronic illness, I wondered how he always kept such a positive attitude. His advice, “always keep the main thing, the main thing.” I stopped dead in my tracks upon hearing this simple yet profound statement. What a concept and what a truth!

I thought of that statement today as I watched my kids playing out in the yard amongst the crispy fallen leaves. They were playing make-believe and hard at work in their adventure. They were giggling and running around occasionally falling to the ground into a pile of leaveswith reckless abandon. Their only worry…ONLY worry at this moment in their whole life is – “what shall we pretend to do next and do I have a dead leaf in my pants?” How freeing and innocent. They are being children. Children do not need to worry about clean school clothes for tomorrow morning or what’s for dinner tonight. They are not concerned with phone bills or car payments. They do not clutter their mind with the grocery list, watching the news or reading the obituaries.

Of course children worry. They worry about the dark, nightmares and thunderstorms. Some worry about their parents and why they fight so much. Others worry about where they will sleep tonight. What they don’t dothough, is worry while they play. The main thing on their mind during a big jump in the leaves is, jumping in the leaves!

I will be starting a new job tomorrow, in a brand new career. It is in my nature to worry- A LOT! I spent most of today in fact, trying to block out all of my worries and concentrate on enjoying my last day at my current job and he beautiful well wishes, party and gifts from all of my wonderful co-workers. It was a chore. As if I were in a perfectly orchestrated play, the Lord stepped in at the perfect time, via a text message from someone I don’t even know with the scripture cited above… “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 (NIV) “ Read the last line again… “The Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” How perfectly perfect is the Lord? He was not a minute too late and had just what I needed to hear and I didn’t even realize he had a text messaging service!

So as I sit here now Lord, as we (all who are reading this) sit here and contemplate all of the things we clutter our minds with, we ask for your help. Help us to breathe, relax and look up, to you. Help us to stop looking at all of our “stuff” and set it aside and simply trust in you. You are ahead of and behind us and Help us to jump into the leaves with reckless abandon and know there is no place we can go that you are not with us. You are the main thing. Amen

Friday, October 9, 2009

I don’t get it

The day started off challenging. I spilled a HUGE cup of coffee with extra milk in the crack between my counter and my stove. It was one of those slow motion, “my hand and my brain aren’t communicating” moments so by the time a synapse sparked, the whole cup was gone. That ought to smell good in a while!

Next, following an argument with my son who “got up on the disagreeable side of the bed” this morning, I got some early morning exercise by chasing the dog around the kitchen as she was trying to ingest part of a plastic model airplane. Part of the airplane my son was not supposed to be playing with before school and dropped, causing it to disassemble rather abruptly all over the floor.

On my way to work I had to pick up a prescription from the doctor’s office…which was closed. I headed my usual way to work, late by then. Along with the apparently visible signage on my van saying “please, pull out in front of me,” I encountered detours which have become strangely normal these days. (Detours shouldn’t be so common that they are a normal part of the commute. That’s just wrong, and aggravating.) Sitting at a red light (of course- I hit all of them), I thought, what would it look like if I sat here banging my head on the steering wheel? I bet it would look funny. I crack myself up.

Finally, I arrived at work. Apparently I was destined for hassles today. I am starting a new job in a few days so I had to pack all of my things in preparation for my departure. Every single time I needed a stapler, highlighter, white out, scissors etc. I had to go on a scavenger hunt and unpack. I pictured myself banging my head on my desk, imagined my boss walking in and again, I cracked myself up.

The aggravating day continued until I was finally free. On the way home, I again encountered a detour. Only, to change things up a bit, it was in a different place than this morning. As I approached the big orange “detour” sign, I remembered yesterday’s detour in this spot. It had caused me to have to drive ten minutes in the wrong direction and then in a big circle. This remembering was just enough daydreaming time for me to turn at the detour and, out of the corner of my eye, see the construction man REMOVE the detour sign and re-open the road! Too late for me, I had already turned and was headed down a one-way street. I screamed “nooooo” and wanted to, you guessed it…bang my head on the steering wheel.

Finally I arrived home and happily greeted my kids. As I inquired how everyone’s day went, my youngest son exclaimed that he didn’t get any warnings in school today but he also didn’t earn all of his “good behavior” points. I replied; “I don’t get it, how did you lose points but not get warnings?” His answer, “Of course you don’t get it, YOU’RE MOMMY!” I think this explains my whole entire day.

Some days are harder than others. My day today was not so bad, as bad days go. In fact it was a mere nuisance. The Lord knows that tragedies and sorrows and major life changing events occur some days. When they do, they are far from making any of us laugh. We shake our heads, stare up through our tears and sigh, “I just don’t get it.”

Psalm 116: 1-7 says; “I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came upon me; I was overcome by trouble and sorrow. Then I called on the name of the LORD "O LORD, save me!" The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion.. The LORD protects the simple-hearted, when I was in great need, he saved me. Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you.”

I never get it. I know, that I know, that I know, the Lord is in charge of the plans for my life no matter what I face. There are days when instead of simply banging my head, I drop to my knees in surrender to Him who knows the beginning, the middle and the end of the story- my story and your story. He loves and cares for us deeply and He is able to sustain us, even on a REAL bad day. We don’t have to get it, because He does.

“I will rest once more for the Lord has been good to me.” Amen